Oh, and I'm not actually in a band.

Date:	2005-04-26 01:05
Subject:	Good news
Security:	Public
Mood:	jubilant
Music:	trainspotting soundtrack

Found out the other day that I've been accepted into the graduate program at the U of U. Hopefully this will improve things, although I know it's bad to have that 'grass is always greener' philosophy. The U just has more to offer me particularly, more opportunities and such. You'll never hear me trashing UV.

Some great times have been had here, and I'm sure that many more will be this summer...I hope? Someone come and hang out with me this summer? PLEASE!

Enough of the silly begging. Fuck off, all of you :)

My band is better than your band.

Date:	2005-04-01 09:52
Subject:	Update, shmupdate
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird

I don't really know why, but today I feel really good. Maybe I just woke up on the right side of the bed, finally:)

The last two days have been a little bit weird for a few reasons. There isn't really any way to explain it without sounding stupid, though. Let's just say that I've been having romantic issues that came about because of some strange funk I was in, and things got sticky. Wait, let me rephrase...well, I mean sticky in the moral sense, or...GOD DAMN IT! Let's just leave that alone for now. If you're reading, then you know I'm talking about you.

Time to go to class now. Bah.

Date:	2005-03-28 19:02
Subject:	Bad News
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy
Music:	muzak

I am watching a history channel documentary about conquistadores when my mother calls and tells me my Grandpa died. So, I'm a little bit bummed about that. I didn't know him very well. I mean, we only met a few times at birthdays and special occasions and things. Still it's sad when people in your family are dying, even if you aren't close, because it's still losing a part of your heritage. I don't know. I guess I feel like there's a big part of me that owes a lot to him whether I realize it all the time or not, and I feel bad for not realizing that sooner. Well life goes on, for me at least.

Date:	2005-03-27 20:18
Subject:	"Hey, you can't sleep here!"
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained
Music:	Kurt Bestor?!

Wow, the last few days have been crazy. We haven't slept in ages, and our skin is peeling off and we smell like shit.

Easter Sunday! No candy, no eggs, but a lot of sleep. Spring Break was a blast, and there were some scary moments mixed in as well. So we headed down to Vegas but there wasn't really anything for us to do there so we hit LA and had fun soaking in all that weirdness. A bit of advice, though. Don't ever go on a long road trip without knowing where you're going to sleep at least some of the time. For three nights we found cheap motels, but other than that we had to find inconspicuous places to sleep in the car, or we just wandered around all night. Actually, you can sort of wander around all night down there if you're in the right part of town. We went to a couple of bars, but we couldn't really afford to do anything fancy and we can always hit bars at home, so we basically just watched all the funny people and tried not to look like tourists.

I didn't sleep very much virtually all week long, so today I took a long nap until about 5 in the afternoon, and then Mike and Jen (my only married friends) were nice enough to make me some food because they knew I didn't have any at home. Hooray for nice people. Let's hear it for being Christ-like!

Date:	2005-03-17 15:54
Subject:	California knows how to party
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic
Music:	Dr. Dre!

Spring Break is almost here! On Saturday I am heading to California with my trusty sidekick Mav, and you'd better bewlieve we are going to soak up some sun and smog. Maybe I can find a gay lover along the way and we can get hitched in SanFran? We'll see about that later. Anyway, for now it's off I go, and Maybe I'll post something tomorrow.

Date:	2005-03-12 12:21
Subject:	Tah Dah!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	Something by J-5?

Oh, joy! Spring break is almost here and it's about time. I decided that Mav and I are headed to California for the holliday. Should be fun and exciting and weird at the same time. Things always are with Mav. Someday I'm going to write an ode to him. Maybe when I take another poetry class if we're studying Pindar or something I'll write a Pindaric ode to the one called Mav. That's a good idea.

I feel so uninspired in my writing lately. It is really much more difficult than it sounds to create beauty. Anyone who doesn't know that has a lot to learn. Still, I will keep trying. Maybe someday I will write a poem for you and it will stand th test of time.

Date:	2005-03-04 13:48
Subject:	I know what to do.
Security:	Public
Mood:	ditzy
Music:	Sinatra-I've Got You Under my Skin.

I finally let loose and partied hard last night. It made me feel a little bit naughty, because I realize now that getting trashed is for idiots, but maybe everyone needs to be idiotic sometimes. Worse news: My car broke down. AGAIN. I'm about ready to junk that piece of shit and walk around everywhere. Will and I talked about this. People don't walk often enough. We're a bunch of lazy bastards nowadays, with our damn cars.

Date:	2005-02-28 23:37
Subject:	Hooray for Homosexuals!
Security:	Public
Mood:	distressed
Music:	Pixies

I just want to take this time to express my love for those not of commonly accepted sexual preference, and my sorrow at living in a state where the word "preference" is not commonly understood. Today I got into a conversation about homosexuality with a hard-core mormon. Now, I have no problem with mormons themselves (I am one) but I do take offense to alot of political views that seem to be held by the majority here. It seems hypocritical to me when a person takes upon themselves the label of "Christian" and then uses it as a means of persecuting those who live a different lifestyle. Have these people never heard of the Crusades? Or even read most of what Jesus himself supposedly said in the Sermon on the Mount? I guess you can make the Bible say whatever you want it to say if you're really determined to believe something. But to completely miss the point of Jesus' teachings on love and tolerance and then call yourself a Christian is to blaspheme his name by misrepresenting it. Haven't they read the Commandment that says "Thou shalt not take the Lord's name in vain?" I guess they've misunderstood that, too. Christ almighty.

Date:	2005-02-27 11:48
Subject:	Optimistic
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	church Music (blah!)

It's a beautiful day out...AGAIN! This winter continues to surprise me. Soon it will be spring, and then I will live outside.

I've been working a lot lately, which hasn't given me much time to do other stuff that I like, but at least I'm making a living. That's more than my brother can say. My classes are really starting to lot a lot better and so I'm very excited about where that will go. Still don't know what I'm doing for Spring Break. Maybe Wendover? I don't know, I'd have to find someone to go with. With this journal I'm just going to try and write out whatever's on my mind at the time. It will be more like a real journal, although I will have to leave out the more personal stuff. I don't know though. It may get redundant as I tend to think about the same things over and over again. We'll see. Who knows, maybe I could come up with something worth reading.

Date:	2005-02-23 00:26
Subject:	Just some miscellaneous garbage
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy
Music:	Bob Dylan-Make You Feel my Love

Today some kid came up to me and asked if I was single. No kidding! That was literally the first thing that came out of his mouth! In a weird way that was flattering, but I still gave him a weird look and said no, even though that was obviously a lie. What is wrong with me?

Otherwise the day was shitty, and I'm waiting for the weekend so that I can do something that matters less. Or maybe I can just do nothing at all. I think that's a better plan.

Note to self: No more spending money in bars when there's nothing better to do! I need to catch up on my reading anyway. Some of my friends (ahem, ones who read this journal) make me feel stupid and illiterate. So, every time I feel like having a night out I'll harass you with my phone calls asking for cool books to read. Ha!

I'll update again pretty soon.

Date:	2005-02-17 12:59
Subject:	Let's talk about the weather.
Security:	Public
Mood:	hyper
Music:	rem

The weather is mild for once, and for once I'm happy. It always feels nice when the sun comes out again, even if it's really fucking cold outside.

Date:	2005-02-07 13:41
Subject:	Some bitter rantings to all of you.
Security:	Public
Mood:	cynical
Music:	Mary Poppins

Every time I try to do something cool my efforts are destroyed by someone else doing something cooler. Every time I want something real all I get is pre-packaged "realness". It's funny and sad because I don't even remember a time when you could get real things. I wasn't even alive back then. God, that's terrible to think of.

Work is going pretty well, though. I got a nice pay check and it was more than I expected to get. Now it's time to resist that urge to spend every bit of extra cash I get. Why was I raised this way??? I just want to sit around and watch James Cagney and drink my God Damn Snapple and be left the hell alone. Is that too much to ask?

People are funny. People are strange. People are awful and miserable. People are my life.

There isn't any point anymore. Well, except my poetry class that I'm actually really enjoying. Other than that it's all shit. Maybe I'll write some poems about it. I need to get better grades.

Date:	2005-01-25 12:11
Subject:	Nothing
Security:	Public
Mood:	moody
Music:	trainspotting soundtrack

In another week or so this shit will all be over. God damnit.

I don't want to whine in my journal. I want to fill it with happy things. Give me something!

I can't believe it! I am addicted to television lately. I was watching this show on MTV about this asshole in New Jersey who basically goes around being drunk and starting fights and trying to pick up chicks and then calling them bitches. And this was a REAL GUY! He was bald and tattooed and he has this fat asshole friend, and they were so stereotypically New Jersey! Like they had the accents and everything. Anyway, what this made me think of was the fact that people watch this bullshit and then I thought "wait a minut, I watch this bullshit." And then I thought "Holy fuck, I'm writing about it in my livejournal!?!"

The quote of the day: "Where's my fuckin' cheeseballs?!" (In a thick Jersey accent)

I'm not too happy about the way this week is going. I have 18 zits on my body. Yesterday I stood in front of the mirror and counted them. Do you know what else I'm sick of? These jamster commercials they keep showing when I'm trying to watch Comedy Central. I swear if I ever see someone with those ringtones I am going to point at them and laugh in their face. If you have one of those, you must be a dumbass.

The subject line is a quote from the prof. of my poetry class. I'm loving my poetry class and soon I may post some of my new compositions so that you can laugh at them. A lot of people post bad poetry on Livejournal I guess, but at least no one really reads mine.

Tomorrow is the shitty class. I am trying to get through this one because after it's over I'll be done with generals FOREVER. That's enough to make me scream out your name in ecstacy.

Date:	2005-01-12 10:40
Subject:	Interesting
Security:	Public
Mood:	dirty
Music:	none

Now I need to rent this!


You are "Drawing Flies"!!!!!!!!

You and your friends have decided to go on a trip
in the woods. You are flat broke. Of course,
you are looking for Sasquatch, but you'd never
let them know. No, they all think you are
crazy, but you'll show them. Just watch out for
Adult men dressed as babies, complete with
diapers and pacifiers.


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Date:	2005-01-12 10:30
Subject:	I'm making an effort
Security:	Public
Mood:	thirsty
Music:	none

Certain people really cause me to re-evaluate just about everything in my life. By certain people I mean the Will. The guy makes a real good case for giving up porn and meat and just about anything else he doesn't really like. Anyway, I am growing out of these things as it is.

The weather has been scary lately. It's all cold rain and snow and wind that blows through me bones. Guh. Not much better than Chi-town, I suppose. The winters there are sometimes horrific.